But i've revived one of those Power-Pep-Talk dreams God gave me when i slept last night.
So whew. thanks, Boss up there.

it was literally a few rounds of pep talk i was attending together with a group of good friends....one of them was a crusade gal. and there i was being the most "on" person in the group hurrying everyone for the next talk and so on. the place? quite a brightly lit lecture theatre or room. the rows were steeper than the ones in NTU. and we had chairs.
i guess the MESSAGE of the dream, to me, was:

Why should i worry abt anything at all, God sees everything.

HA.
HA.
HA.
think i woke up actually smiling.

Exasperated

I have never been more exasperated this yr......so there were previous years' experiences of exasperation but never has it been in a time more appropriate. i know there's never been such a word as clear-out-my-conscience.....but i've been trying my best to. i tried at least for the past (few)months....ok maybe it's still too short a time to see changes. heh.
but this is worse than all my modules in school!! is it just bu2 gou4 effort on my part? maybe it's not about effort on my part anymore lah. i really feel like giving up.....on this cause and on them. but then again there's this tiny peek of hope suddenly of things of (3 or 4) yrs ago brought back that proved time and again that i cannot and i mustn't cease to keep on keeping on for this good cause. for good reigned in that situation and will continue to reign. over evil.

Just dreaming.......
I want a piano.....anyone know of cheap 2nd hand ones?
so i can play like Michael W.Smith (yeeahhh riiiighhhhttt as if i can reach that standard) it was sold off when we moved.

Today just wasn't a great day.
Kinda got scolded by her for what i did to her last fri.
But she really did ask for it lor. She started the conflict ball rolling. *pissed* but i'll still apologize.
But......

You are a Redemptive God.
the lesson from the whole thing? i gotta STOP and THINK before i talk.
Bcos when i actually stop and think about my deep-down motive for talking,
i realise i definitely wanna be a peacemaker rather than a dissension-stirrer.....
so when i hold that tongue for JUST that SPLIT-second, i get the right course of direction figured out. whew. YeS it does feel good to peace-loving.

So when in doubt......pray, pray........pray!!! and prcoess my thots twice or thrice. sighz........so much for Miss Little Evangelist here (me)........sabotaging myself and the gospel last fri. gee i feel like punching myself. *guilt*

P.S.
Cybercell ppl (Janice, Thechosencan, sharmaine, Meihu, Gordan)--outing tentatively NEXT (Sabbath) SUNdae....kEEp It HoLy.........and FREE too!!

"All things work for the good of those who Love Him."---which scripture is this from?

Well said well said.

woo hoo, applause to previous post's comment.

By one of the few and far between breed of Christians guys in s'pore left (1%), Mr. Chosencan.

Haha. but i won't say guys who are faithful to God are unattractive.

It's just that measured by the world's standards they don't seem so appealing.

And that's because they're broken before God. once, twice, many times broken.

Died to self. Not living for the flesh.

Venting, ranting, i speak my mind.

i was just really really really stressed in 3 different ways and two of the stresses have been divinely intervened, somehow, as in solved. haaah. whhheeeewww. so left one more. pray for me!
it's crazy, but my friend writes beautiful poetry too. some of her best works was when she was the downest, just like King David of the bible, when he was the most afraid....running from Saul, or most remorseful, he would generate some of the most lovely songs and poetry. and God used it.

on to the endless debate abt the casino. argh......have a feeling the govt will come up with a decision like this: it will b built in the end for the economy but with all the protective measures for social security, like an 'only members' kinda thing. the world is coming to an end anyway....

crossroads was a breather today......whoa.....thankew God! its so so nice being carefree just sitting back n laffing wif the old gang. and even tho' the sermon's not funny we laugh just to show we're there still and give moral support.....err.....(some ppl dun like it tho').

we gals just adore Christian good guys. there's lack of them nowadays. REAL men. take a look at the quality of guys. even Christian males......how many are actually fearing and loving God? 1%? are those days of Billy Graham and Bill Bright gone?.....
Come on guys, PROVE us wrong!