Exasperated

I have never been more exasperated this yr......so there were previous years' experiences of exasperation but never has it been in a time more appropriate. i know there's never been such a word as clear-out-my-conscience.....but i've been trying my best to. i tried at least for the past (few)months....ok maybe it's still too short a time to see changes. heh.
but this is worse than all my modules in school!! is it just bu2 gou4 effort on my part? maybe it's not about effort on my part anymore lah. i really feel like giving up.....on this cause and on them. but then again there's this tiny peek of hope suddenly of things of (3 or 4) yrs ago brought back that proved time and again that i cannot and i mustn't cease to keep on keeping on for this good cause. for good reigned in that situation and will continue to reign. over evil.